my random whines

It really has been a while!

2011-09-15T18:45:00.001+08:00

Married with no kids yet. In fact we've been married for quite awhile now, 1year and 7months to be exact. Still no 2lines indication showing up. Now, that's a little quick update about what my life is about after a silence year (s).

Ohh...missing 1 important part in me, am a housewife! :=) yep!! 3 months after wedding I've decided to make a change, a new job maybe. But guess the lucks are still far away from my expectation. Here I am now, sitting at home and doing what a housewives out there are doing, or suppose to do. Sigh!! Not complaining but can't help to feel how good if everything happen as planned and as how I wish things to happen.

So enough of my boring little life. It's still Raya and let' be joyful for the days.

This is my 2nd raya with hubster. Of course it's different as this year we are celebrating it on hubster's side. Different as in they do not do salam-salam as per my usual custom back at my parents home. But that's ok....the raya mode is still in the air! :)

And now we are in the end of syawal. Despite all the joyous and happy moments, there's a really terrible thing happens to our family. I am not having the nerve to write about it yet. It's too painful, devastating, frustrated and awful moments. Perhaps later when I've regain the strength. :(

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2010-03-16T15:32:00.001+08:00

Muahhss!!! Kasi cium satu!

KPI, azam tahun baru!

2009-12-09T16:10:00.002+08:00

Now everybody tengah cerita pasal achievement. Boring btol. Be it life, work or anything.. Yela…nak la weigh up mcm mane kita dah performed this year, ye tak? Ok ke tak ok..
Frankly, I don’t see any achievement in myself so far. Everything is all about the same old same old. Work? Hmm..baru je lepas key in KPI. Not really a great deal of success. Takde achievement. Life? Yeah, one greatest big achievement so far is only my relationship. Others, takde. I have no new car, no new house, still maintain the same weight (haha), no saving (oh, nih mmg favourite resolution every year tapi tak penah accomplished).
Better me in 2009? Not really. Still the same malas of me, a lot of whining, kurang berasa kesyukuran, emotional me, ape lagi??
Cut thing short, I’m still the old me. I have not change to a better person, yet! (But I’m nice..hehee…)

Kalau dulu everytime nak new year sure excited lebih. Dah siap pikir nak pakai baju ape, kasut ape….club mane nak invade on the new year eve. Memang excited gile la nak party. Kelakar la... I had soooo much fun that time. Clubbing with sisters and cousins and few close friends, hehehe..
But that was 4 years back. I did not celebrate since then except keluar makan/BBQ dengan family. I can see how things change. And tetiba terasa tua lak. Huhu…

I did not expect anything blissful on this coming new year. (takde pikir party dah). I’m just thankful to ALLAH, bersyukur dipanjang umur and eventho takde any precious belonging or possession so far but still I have enough of everything and for that I can never thank GOD enough.. I’m still can be consider blessed and fortunate (compared to those yang kurang berkemampuan, kena ingat ada orang yang lagi susah dari kita, hence kena bersyukur dengan ape yang ada sekarang). And hope to be blessed with many good returns for coming years and surround with all the people I love.

Years have come and go for the past 29 yrs now.
Hitting my early THIRTY with open heart, eyes and mind. (positive…positive..)

I hope 2010 will bring my life a lot better, in person and in life. I’m looking for a better starting. Where and how do I start? hmm..kena pikir nih. I just wanted to be a better me. Tapi sedih jugak nak leave 2009 nih. Byk memorable event, teary and happy moments. I should put TRIBUTE TO 2009 pictures in my next entry most probably. If tak malas la.. (haha..still the same old me…very the malas)

Ayat-ayat Cinta

2009-12-04T16:27:00.004+08:00

True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of ALL that is, has been, will be and will not be.

The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have

Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain.

Renung-renungkan........

Another manic monday

2009-11-23T15:40:00.000+08:00

Mimi's rules of thumb - Always give 100% at work.

12% monday
23% tuesday
40% wednesday
20% thursday
5% friday

Huarrrgggghh!!! Ngantuk gile. I am looking forward for the weekend. Raya + mini vacation. YAYY!!

The not so happening Farewell Party

2009-11-20T16:30:00.011+08:00

Last weekend was my collegue last day working here in MSAP. He was back to Philippines for good and after this I kena working closely with him, given that he’ll be the new CS Director at Philippines office. Uwaa….why life never been easier for me. One thing about this job is, I don’t have a single passionate towards it and I can’t imagine staying here any longer. I tried…I tried to give my full commitment but tak bole la..really not my line. I wish somebody is reading this and can offer me a better job. My specialist is, ehhhmmmmmm……..takde la plak..uwaaaa….cane nih… Dah la that day boss mentioned about sending me to Philippines for training since Debi is there already. Damn la….tanak bole tak? Kang kalau kena paksa mkn jolly bee camne? Takpon kena mkn embrio? Haa…tak halal tuh.. (alasan nak mengukuhkan tanak pegi je..)..Nih yang buat tak sabar2 nak carik keje lain nih..

Ok...ok..so here are some pics taken by my other collegue (wa..padahal bos tuh) during the party.

The food, contribute by Company & us

The celebrated one yang dah lapar pegang-pegang perut. Yes, thats Debi.

Farewell speech. Erkk..tapi macam tak sedih je??

Eat..eat..eat...

Not to say tak happening la....we did enjoyed the evening, especially for the free foods. Hehee...and this likely the occasion where MSAP can bergurau and tease each other actually. Because most of us are quite serious during the normal working hours that sometimes you can hear flies buzzing. Hehee...semua buat keje senyap gile okk....

And Debi absence will surely bring more senyapness in the office. Hehee...We will definately miss you pakcik deb and hope to meet you again soon. Erkkk..i mean in KL..Hahahaa....

Ssssshhhhhhh.........

2009-11-20T15:19:00.003+08:00

I am planning to keep this as a secret and let it unfold by itself when the time comes. But i'm too excited I feel like sharing with all my family and friends now!

(some might already knew).

Hehehe...i have to learn to be more passion..

Selamat Setahun Bertunang - 22/11

2009-11-19T17:46:00.009+08:00

Haha..bole tak celebrate bertunang?Ala..orang lain yang couple-couple tuh bole je celebrate anniversary, takkan la tunang takleh kan?

Setahun dah engage. Nak tau ape i rasa??Ehmmm.....i feel like yearssssssss!!!!!!! Of course ada masa gaduh and masa happy nye. Tapi my case is different. Bertunang jarak jauh ok..Hehehe...so you can imagine the hardness that we have to put up with. Especially bile time gaduh tuh. Memang kena sabar to the max.

3 months after engagement, he left for his Master Degree in the land of down under. SADD!!!Luckily every semester break die balik sini (baru 2 kali pon). So rasa terubat la jugak hati kannnn...Tapi kat sini pon i'm quite occupied actually. With works, then lotsa lovely friends here to keep me up well and also not to forget my family....lagi la occupied gile kan...hehehe....

Pejam celik pejam celik, he just have another only 1 semester to complete his study. Then balik baru boleh kawinnn....overall we've been engaged (will be) for 2 yrs la lebih kurang. Not bad huh??

Oh...jangan ditanye ape perasaan i, only God knows..Mintak dikekalkan jodoh sudah. AMIN....

Eh...emosi-emosi pulak. Cuaca nowadays pon sejuk je..so sesuai untuk beremosi. Hehee..Eh, lupa. Eventhough yesterday is the anniversary, yet we all tak celebrate ape pon. I'm busy with my brother's wedding preparation. We went to Jakel yesterday and bought some materials. Now pening mane nak hantar tempah as we don't have any particular tailor yang buat baju best. Yang ada dulu dah tak betul. Hantar tempah baju raya tapi toward few days nak raya tuh baju tak siap. Mau my mum (arwah) tak mengamuk? Then most raya after that we all beli ready made je. Murah and cantik. Hehehe...

Btw, off the record, i'm trying to get underway this appealing and vigorous MISSION, and for one particular purpose(s). This MISSION have to be accomplished within 2 months from now on at least...Hehe...stay put to know why!

Jalan-jalan carik baju

2009-11-09T17:05:00.002+08:00

We head to jalan tar last Sunday to look for baju nikah. Hmm…tamak and tak sabar punye pasal I dah letak deposit for this pair of kain beaded chiffon yang sangat cantik. Except now I’m guilty as hell bile pikir kan price die. Hmm..should I withrew, or proceed with my choice? Nak amik gambar tapi lupa bawak camera. And both our phone tak canggih..kalau amik gamba pon sure blur. So cannot ask for third opinion whatsoever.

Feeling sorang2 and fikir, kalau la betul I’ll get married this very soon, maybe next year raya I have to beraya dengan the other family. WOWW!!!!betul ke I dah mentally ready nih? While all my family will gather bersama-sama this year, (my sis turn next year, and my bro baru kawen, so mmg turn die la dulu kan). Huhuhu…that is something yang I kena sacrifice. Not really sacrifice la. Rumah pon dekat, hanya sebatang rokok je, so I don’t think we will face any difficulty managing that. hopefully. takde gado2 sampai kena beli cincin 0.5 carat baru bole pujuk. ahakss!!

Everyday mesti pikir pasal nih, and it brings butterfly in the stomach. But excited at the same time. Ehmmm…sad side of it, everything have to be done on our own. Yela, family memang ade to support all that, tapi the intimate moments story details with our own mother tuh tak dapat rasa. Not like my sister’s wedding previously. Suasana tuh memang ada and meriah. Everybody have to get involved in one way or another. So basically we missed the anchor woman here. Even my brother’s wedding just around the corner nih pon kena buat sendiri. Kesian die. Tak kisah la, asalkan majlis berjalan lancar sudah.

Baju nikah dah jumpa. Nak carik baju for my brother’s reception pulak. The theme for our side is red&black. Its gonna be totally different and new experience for us as we will wear black that night. The pengantin will wear red. For the bride’s side, we will wear white. So nak kena carik baju black & white. Hehe…bestnye nak carik baju baru lagi. Except ade ke ongkos nya?? Mane la nak fork out duit lagi nih. Haihhhh…..

Abandoned

2009-10-02T17:48:00.004+08:00

Yess..you are being abandoned for quite sometimes...
But you are not forgotten..
In fact, i've been drafting for a few days or so to come out with a nice piece of updates..
Still no exact words matches the electrify and mixture feelings that loitered around me.

A lot to be tell...just in a matter of time.

Malam Raya in Down Under

2009-09-20T00:56:00.003+08:00

Hmmm..... Hari Raya kat negara orang. Dah sebulan puasa. Besok rasa pelik plak dah tak puasa. Paling pelik ialah raya kat negara orang. Kemeriahan Ramadhan lansung takder. 85% buka posa sorang2 kat umah. Sedih la gak tapi buat2 tak reti jer. 5% kat class tapi meriah la jugak sebab ader 2 orang bukak posa sama. Satu group plak tuh so ok sikit. 10% bukak kat restoran. Kat sini dpt ler berbuka ngan kurma. Yg peliknya buka posa ngan a chinese guy. hahahaha.....

Buat masa sekarang benda ni suma rasa sgt tak best tapi in years to come I think I will cherish the memories. Skrang malam raya... mata tak ngantuk. Waiting my other half too on line. Kesian gak dia. I know she is tired. Kemas & memasak dari pagi. Maybe bleh on line kejap or call jer lagi senang. Tak rasa mcm nak raya lansung. Hopefully with few frens besok bleh la rasa suasana raya sikit. To all the readers. Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin!!

Are Malaysian Ignorant?

2009-09-03T13:46:00.003+08:00

Are Malaysian Ignorant? It is sad to know that Malaysian sometime can be so ignorant. It seems like they dont care whatever is happening around them. Most of all they got their information & resources from just one side. One group will got their daily news from the opposition website. For them whatever in the sites are true. One group just look whatever the government feeding them through the mainstream media. But the last group is the best - doesn't care at all. I wonder what is this ignorant group teach their children??I

I'm not saying i'm master of all trade but you have to know and aware of your environment. Malaysian citizen are maturing but these ignorant group will put the country a step back. Pastu bila anak-anak mcm blur jer trus marah. Terus kluar bahasa melayu. Please Malaysian.... learn more about our country & our issues. Pastu tengok-tengok la what happening around the world. It doesn't hurt anybody to know more. These are basic stuff that are happening around the world. Bukan nyer world economic issues or climate change ker. Jangan baca news only masa nak gi interview. If we still ignorant we gonna be like these people in the video.

Not comfortable

2009-09-02T13:38:00.002+08:00

Lips
Lips are super dry. Then dekat upper and lower lip ade macam biji-biji. No matter how moist I try to make it, in few second dah jadi dry balik. Plus rasa biji-biji tuh….sangat uncomfortable. Then dekat hujung feels very itchy. Yesterday macam nampak nak bengkak dah, but still not obvious. Today bangun pagi…………….huhhh?? bibir dah jadi separuh Angelina Jolie dah. Separuh sebab the bengkak just at one corner of my mouth. Gatal plus pedih plus dry feel eeeuuuwwww….
Mungkinkah ini balasan sebab tak puasa and minum air selamba dekat office?
Mungkin juga!
Oleh itu padan muka!

Skin
Gile gatal! My skin has developed some kind of hives due to inexplicable caused. Naik biji-biji kecil yang super gatal dekat my arms, neck, waist and banyak area lagi la. Memang tak bole tido. I keep scratching and scratching and scratching till one point I dah tak tahan….i amik panadol and telan. Hopefully dapat tido. Tapi apa kaitan panadol dengan gatal?
Iye, memang takde kaitan. Sebab tuh la after telan pon tak dapat tido.
Memang bijak!

Bangun pagi tadi mamai-mamai. Not enough sleep. Then sampai office pegi melawat Dr. Young & Newton. Bukan nak kaji gravity, tapi nak kaji masalah gatal nih. According to doctor, maybe I’m allergic to food or dust. Food?? Takde la pulak makan benda pelik-pelik these past few days. Hmmm… Dust tuh make sense jugak. Because rumah sekarang belum habis kemas lagi. All the habuk kayu, habuk cat, and habuk furniture, penuh kat rumah..

Adoii!!! Hopefully baik la cepat. Reaaaalyyyyyyy not comfortable.
Imagine kat office sambil buat keje sambil menggaru. Pastu feeling half Angelina Jolie…........

I need a new hair style

2009-08-29T01:00:00.005+08:00

My hair colour is black, not so thick and its shoulder length. Or an inch or two above the shoulder. :P.....Actually the length is perfect but i just need new style.

Here goes the criteria:-

1) Easy to manage, like don't require a blow dry every morning
2) Sexy, waaaaa...mcm kau bagus je!
3) I will still look drop dead gorgeous eventho it is messy. :P

Macam ni ke?

Huh??Kau ingat rambut kau panjang boleh kibas-kibas?

Ok la...more like one of this la....

What do you think?

In pursuit of Hari Raya cookies

2009-08-28T15:46:00.004+08:00

Just ordered 2 boxes of samperit chocolate from Ilin. I got to taste it yesterday and it’s yummy.

Other biscuits? No thank you! Not to my likings although I’m sure it is nice. Hehe..jangan marah ilin busuk! One main cookie in my pursuit is LUXOR TART.
The tasteeee………..nyammmmmmnyammmm!!!!!

I tried high and low to find luxor representative, and not sure either this cookies still available in their product list. Nonetheless, akan ku cari sampai jumpe.....

Wish me!!

Bile nak second entry nih?

2009-08-26T22:02:00.002+08:00

There goes the first entry, and waiting for the second to arrive. Hehehe…YOU GO BOY!!

I’m checking and scouting for kuih raya made by friends. Wondering if I could post some to Melbourne for fiancé feels a bit of suasana raya. A little bit of kerepek-kerepek ke. Baru la rasa raya kan… But guess their custom did not allow for such possessions entered their country. Bongoks btol!

Puasa so far so good. Have a few gathering event starting tomorrow with my Sains Selangor friends. And we are heading to someplace that might hold a lot of memories back then. Just to reminiscence our good old days! How fast time flies and how we had turn to become. We did not have early friendship, as all of us join the school in F3. All from difference school background.

But we stay put!

Can’t wait to see them all tomorrow, but first need to deal with the fucked up that happened at the OFFICE today! HUHH!!

Ooo yah! And another thing, fiancé got HD marks for one of his presentation in UNI. Congratulations dear!! Hope more to come in flying colours.

Ok peeps!
Nighty night!
Mosquito won’t bite!

First Entry

2009-08-24T02:28:00.005+08:00

Hi to all the people out there. This is my first entry. I'm not a blogger but what the heck, just try it. I'm quite tired at the moment. Just finishing up my assignment about mobile phone & all the impact and culture behind it. Sound easy but when you writing an academic piece u will burn part of your brain. Dah malas nak check. Janji siap! Nak sahur. Kena prepare sendiri.... sedih sorang2 kat tempat orang. Anyway this a paragraph of my essay. Partly is a part of my experience. What do u think?

Texting on mobile phone become a huge success in a more reserved culture. In both Bangkok and Tokyo, teenage boys and girls value texting as a means to communicate without having to voice their feeling and thoughts (Plant, Sadie 2002, p.56). It is a simple method and can avoid any embarrassment compare too face to face interaction. Nevertheless texting also can lead to misunderstanding when the message or point that you want to convey may be interpreted wrongly by the recipient. Non-verbal communication plays an important role in conveying our message. The lack of intonations of your voice and body movement can easily make a simple text message into a huge misunderstanding. Now you even can send video or picture through MMS service. This service while helping us if we use it in a good way, it also can lead to multiple interpretations by other people. In Sydney on 11 December 2005 we can see how SMS can lead to into a race riot at Cronulla Beach. It is rioting for a tech-savvy generation. Mobile phones are providing the calls to arm for the tribe in the race war dividing Sydney. More than 5000 people turn up at Cronulla on Sunday and many were drawn to the rally, which turn into a mob, by text messages on their mobile (Hayes, Kearney, 2005).

Muka kenyang & cacat

2009-08-23T23:48:00.006+08:00

Jom tengok muka kenyang dan cacat my younger sister & brother.....

Ini Atok (kenyang)

Ini Ayu H1N1 (cacat)

Another brother yang terror masak tuh later will be introduce. Hehe...
Tengok muka diorang kenyang makan hilang segala penat....

Menu for today?

2009-08-23T21:44:00.002+08:00

I'm down with a very super low energy yesterday that i have to surrender the cook task to my brother. He's really good in cooking tho, so i would not have to worry much. Basically i'm just sit around the house, doing a bit of house chores and watching TV. Reason being is because i did not woke up for sahur and did not took any dinner the night before. Hmmmm....never tought first day of Ramadhan could be this hard. (huhu..mcm budak sekolah rendah pulak).

My sis & bro pulak ask me to bring them to Pasar Ramadhan Pandan. Aiiiyyoooohhh...Tempat tuh jem and pack gile. Malasnye.... Actually they only look forward for this one particular item, onde-onde buah melaka..Lerrr.. Memang ada satu pakcik tuh jual sedap gile. He make the kuih there. Panas-panas lagi.

Anyway i brought them there, tak kisah la. Tapi bile sampai pakcik tuh dah tutup. :( :( :( :( Orang dah la nak pengsan jalan pusing-pusing kat situ. So we just bought a few kuih yang tak sedap, and balik..

At home, kari ayam, sambal udang petai and sayur buncis dah siap atas meja. YEAYYY!! Terus semangat nak buka.

And since today is a bit active compared to yesterday, i decided to make the onde-onde buah melaka sendiri and cook for my sister bekal as well. The Menu:-

1. Ikan jenahak masak lemak cili api
2. Daging goreng cili
3. Sayur campur (mushroom+capsicum+cauliflower+carrot)
4. Kuih onde-onde buah melaka

Semua sedappp!!! Hahahahaa....
Daging goreng cili tuh masak 2kilo for my sister. Dia nak makan for sahur at her rented house.
Serious sedap...tak tipu.. :)
Onde-onde buah melaka pon success. Hehehe....

Menu for tomorrow??Tapau sudah!!

I miss arwah mama & fiance

2009-08-21T23:34:00.005+08:00

Terasa sayu sangat Ramadhan this time around. One thing for sure and definitely is of course sebab teringatkan arwah mama. Do you know that during Ramadhan semua roh akan berkumpul dan memohon kepada Allah S.W.T to be brought back ke bumi? (some were granted and some were not). Perkara pertama yang diorang akan lakukan is pergi ke kubur untuk melihat jasad diorang. Then diorang akan pergi ke rumah anak-anak, rumah-rumah sesiapa yang mendokan diorang. And if i'm not mistaken, they are longing for doa-doa keluarga dan kenalan yang hidup untuk dibawa balik sebagai bekalan.

I'm truly wish and berdoa for arwah mama to be in this group. I got the feeling she is coming to see us. Sit with us. Maybe laugh together seeing how we are doing in the family. If only i can touch her.......again....Ya Allah, I am so, terribly and horribly miss her.. Usually today mama will prepare foods for us untuk sambut Ramadhan. Rendang, nasi impit, kuah kacang, u name it. Semua ade. All those memories hovered in my mind, intangible and untouchable. But today, what lay on the table is just sebuku roti and yesterday left over foods. Tak sempat nak prepare ape pon. :( Insyallah, ada time i will cook for them dan yang penting niat dan usaha untuk gandakan amalan..untuk arwah mama, and for everybody around. I love you sangat-sangat mama!!

Beside that, another contributor to my sadness is because i'm not going to have the chance to sahur, buka and pegi pasar ramadhan together with my fiancé. :( He will only be back after Raya. :( :( Kesian dia, kena sahur bread&egg and buka pon with limited food. Hope you will doing fine over there, and jangan sedih-sedih macam I sedih kat sini. It’s not good for your study…ok?

Eventho they are not physically with me, and no matter their whereabouts, I will always love them all (of course la kan). They are the most important people in my life and I will always pray and call upon their well being.

But at this moment, without the two of them, i am lonesome!

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

2009-08-21T15:00:00.005+08:00

Terlebih dahulu saya ingin memohon maaf jika saya ada membuat kesalahan, baik yang tidak disengajakan mahupun yang disengajakan.

Semoga Allah S.W.T memberkati dan mengurniakan setinggi-tinggi pahala ke atas segala ibadat kita di bulan yang mulia ini, insyaallah, AMIN.

Selamat Berpuasa, :)

Healthy & Puasa Ganti

2009-08-20T15:54:00.000+08:00

Healthy & puasa ganti, sebenarnye nak buat pantun. :P

Well, my sister dah fully recovered (hopefully) from the fever and flu. She went back to her rented house yesterday and will be start schooling today. She went back with a sack packed with full of health remedy like fruits, honey, vitamins & juices (housemates die sure tumpang sekaki). Will see how she's doing in another 3 days (balik for weekend).

On the other notes, Ramadhan is coming in just a few days, and yet, puasa last year satu pon tak ganti (memang tak sempat pon. Salah sendiri la sebab malas). I had this discussion before in the office with my colleague, whether i have to ganti puasa double (7 hari tinggal + 7 hari denda) + fidyah OR is it ganti puasa (7 hari tinggal) + fidyah, no need double.

Bile tanye diorang, 2-2 nih bagi pendapat berbeza. So tak tau which one yang betul. I may not be that good in this, hence anybody yang nak bagi pendapat tuh, please do so.

Thank you very much.

Horoscope

2009-08-19T18:19:00.000+08:00

CANCER - The Protector

Moody (betul), emotional (betul). May be shy.. (sangat betul). Very loving and caring (betul, betul). Pretty/handsome (waa...suka, suka...betul sangat). Excellent partners for life (i wishh). Protective (betul jugak). Inventive and imaginative (erkkk). Cautious (betul kot). Touchy-feely kind of person (memang betul sangat! sikit2 nak touching, penat la!). Needs love from others (of course la kan). Easily hurt, but sympathetic (yups).

16 years of bad luck if you do not forward. (errkkkk....apakah ini??)

I can say 89% of it are very true! Yang part pretty/handsome tuh, perasan je lebih. Huhuhu..

Pilih bulu

2009-08-18T17:45:00.000+08:00

Do you know the term of ‘pilih bulu’? It's something like pilih kasih. Or maybe it is pilih kasih, tapi dah di fusion kan? Maybe..

Memang semua tau, but anyway, here goes the interpretation; my version la. Pilih bulu is where when you tend to chose something that might benefits you more compared to something that don’t. Betul tak? Ok, maybe this term is actually works for something that in more keji way. Sebab it will makes somebody terasa sedih, down, distress, miserable, annoy and macam2 terrible feeling lagi la.

Like, I don’t want to friend with this person because this person tak best. Dia tak kaya, tak pandai, tak kelakar, and what not. Ada jugak yang pilih bulu sebab the other person is more beautiful, lagi pandai..and things like that la. Pendek kata, ada hasad dengki di situ. Ada cemburu.

Frankly, there are so many of these peoples around me. Being me, who likes to sit and look, I could tell that these peoples are mostly a loser. They tend and try hard to impress the other person, a kiss-ass type. Some may become very thriving and some might end up like a dump shit loser.

The reason I bring up this topic is that I can see it happening to someone close to me. Hope they realize it and get a snap back into real life.

Point to ponder: berkawan dengan ikhlas sesama kita. Jangan ada dengki khianat and kroni-kroni. (This goes to our everyday life).

Menyampah nye tengok!!

2009-08-18T10:47:00.000+08:00

So I think all have heard the news of the marriage of this one couple artist yang menggelabah gile, which I rasa sangat meloyakan dan menyampah tengok. Ehmmm….after all the deny and cover up, they are now publicly disclose their marriage as if purposely intend to hurt someone. As if nak semua satu Malaysia tau “looook, the best woman win”!! Not to say marriage is bad thing, but how they actually attain the marriage is mean, unkind and intolerable.

Denying their affair is one thing, wrecking the existing marriage is another thing. How nice!

Pity the ex-wife. And if were given a choice to choose a club, I would prefer the first wife club (eventhough I’m not going to tolerate or consider any kind of this related issue in my marriage). I know not all first wives perform or behave well, and sometimes, the divorce happened because of the wife’s faults, I agree. But in this case, it’s obviously not. Blind people also can tell.

How pleasant this kind of persons who can be happy over someone disappointment.
BIG CLAPS to them!!

An exemplar of Muslim and Muslimah sejati?? ya, right!!

Patching

2009-08-16T03:40:00.001+08:00

'"I don't need special treatment. I just need a bit of consideration & fairness"'

Can someone please tell me what is that suppose to mean?
Is that mean the sparks are flying and never come back?

Why do relationships have to turn bitter when it was all exciting in the beginning?
They say its natural as the relationship matures and progresses, couples tend to take a step back and concentrate on other aspects of the relationship.

Then, do i have a choice not to help mature the relationship?

H1N1, please go away!

2009-08-15T00:54:00.000+08:00

As the news and spreading of H1N1 become pandemic and hot topic nowadays, it never cross my mind to have that virus attacking any of my acquaintances, friends and most important my family members. It did happen somehow!!

Last 2 weeks my sister came back from UITM saying the school is closed due to the virus spread among student. And she spent the whole week at home and home only. Never once she gone out lepak2 with her friends. After 3 days of school re-open, she called my brother, says she got infected and got a refer letter from UITM Doctor, and have to undergo quarantine.

I tell u, this is very scary. After all you heard about what the virus would bring you, it really gives us panic-attack, heart-attack and whatever nervous breakdown that you could imagine. This must be transmitted from her classmate, I'm sure of it. Because my sister did mentioned to me before that 3 of her classmates were positive diognosed. Ehmm, not to say their faults jugak la kan because this thing is air borne.

Anyway, I sent her to Hospital yesterday for further prelim session. This is about 9-10pm. Guess how long it took us to complete? KE LAUT!!..it's 5 hours!! Just imagine we have to spent the whole 5 hours with all the patients which some to me have to be bedridden already but somehow the hospital are out of room and these patients have to wheel-chaired to their cars after been given more antibiotic stock. Kesian la!

So my sister terpaksa balik rumah, and house quarantine. Luckily there is no child in the house. The most i'm worrying about adalah bapaku dan abangku. Satu tuh warga emas and lagi satu OKU (ampun!). After 3 days and the fever and symptoms still persist, we will bring her back to the Hospital, and demand further action. This is all scary the shit out of me!

We are giving her the best attention we could give. Bagi makan green apple, juices and other pesanan from ustaz jugak, like minum air kelapa and buah kurma, so on and so forth. Hopefully she will get better and hopefully we are all still OK and not affected.

H1N1...please..please la go away. Nak attack babi pegi je la attack babi tuh. Leave us alone boleh tak??!!

Harimau yang beriman

2009-08-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

Layan cerita ………………………

Alkisah seorang remaja islam yang sihat tubuh badan telah ponteng sembahyang Jumaat. Sebaliknya dia telah masuk ke ladang kelapa sawit untuk memburu ayam hutan. Dengan berbekalkan selaras senapang patah dan beberapa kotak peluru, dia telah masuk ke dalam ladang tersebut seorang diri.

Sedang dia terhendap2 di dalam rimbunan semak, tiba2 dia berlanggar dengan seekor harimau yang sedang tidur lena. Dia berasa sungguh terkejut sehingga senapangnya tercampak lalu tergelungsur ke dalam gaung sementara dia pula tergolek ke arah lain lalu jatuh ke atas sebuah batu besar dan? PRAKKKK! Akibanya kedua2 kakinya patah.

Adapun ini bukanlah suatu berita buruk untuknya. Berita buruknya adalah harimau tadi telah terjaga dari tidur, menuruni gaung tersebut dan menghampiri remaja tersebut dengan bengis sekali, sedangkan dia sudah tidak boleh bergerak lagi. "Ya Allah," doa remaja tersebut,"Ampunilah dosaku kerana telah ponteng sembahyang Jumaat berjemaah pada hari Jumaat yang mulia ini. Ampunilah aku ya Allah. Makbulkan hajat ku ini .. jadikanlah HARIMAU yang memburuku ini HARIMAU yang beriman .. tolong ya Allah! Aminnn.." seru remaja tersebut penuh keinsafan.

Tiba2 guruh berdentum! Petir sambar menyambar. HARIMAU tadi tiba2 terhenti betul2 di hadapan remaja tadi. Harimau itu telah bertukar menjadi seekor harimau yang beriman dan bersopan santun. Sambil menadah kedua2 kaki depannya ke langit .. HARIMAU tersebut pun berdoa, "Allahumma barik lana, fima razaktana, wa qina azzabbannar. Amin!"

Lawak..lawak..for me la..hehehe...

I am stressed

2009-08-11T18:55:00.000+08:00

I might go bonkers today because of my stress level!

There are a lot of things tormented my head right now. Terrible things are happening right to me right now.
Deep down, I rebelled against having to deal with these. Usually I am ok with any of these odd things, as long as I can take it, but this time around, knowing that I am alone to tackle this, and by conceding to it means I have to sacrifice something at some point in my life, I’m kinda upset.

Maybe I don’t have to sacrifice anything. Maybe I shouldn’t feel what I felt now, but I did. Maybe I just have to deal with both of it, instead to lose one and achieve one, maybe I’ll just need to tackle both and leave my emotions to myself to handle, and maybe by doing this it will makes everybody happy.

I’m in win-lose situation now. Like anyone care la kan!!

image from this site

(Orang tengah stress kuda nih bole buat lawak la pulak!)

Condolence

2009-08-11T16:00:00.000+08:00

My deepest condolence to my cousin and his wife who just lost her pregnancy of 3 months.

I know losing a pregnancy (when you are much hope on that) can be heartbreaking.
Really hope the two of them are doing fine now. Insyaallah there will be rezeki someday and the wife will get conceive again.

I just hope they pray, and stay strong.

I met him, F***I

2009-08-09T03:05:00.000+08:00

I've met him, finally!

He is so masuk air. Funny guy. Clumsy guy. Not bad looking. I can see his sincerity. Not the cover-line type of guy. Not a single micro! I hope everything goes well. The occasion can be this very soon. YEAY!!!!!!

For my dear BFF, i am so very happy for you!! Please...please be good to each other. And hope to see you guys in the next level of relationship. Muahahaha...macam game daa...

Thank you for menghiburkan hati i. Bile lagi next karaoke session?
:p

p/s. to my far-far away bolster, i miss you! Flying kiss satu!

Shallow

2009-08-07T12:01:00.000+08:00

I was always been asked by many of my relatives and friends before,

"bila nak kawin nih?"

Don’t they know that jodoh, ajal & maut semua di tangan ALLAH?
And don’t they have any sensitivity towards the person they asked?
How the person would feel by such questions?

Been there, done that.
People have stop asking me now.

I have a friend. Senior by 4-5 years.
She is now being thrown with that dreadful question.
Pity her!

I know it’s not an easy situation for a person to handle.
And some of our guy friends (yang ala-ala mangkuk jantan kabaret) bole ckp,

"Ala..dah perangai dia macam tuh, lelaki mana yang tahan??"

Fuck off la!
Can you guys at least pray for her?
Can you guys put the statement more nicely? Instead blame on her, just say that maybe jodoh dia belum sampai?

Don’t think because you guys are married now you will forever be married.
Tolong ingat, kebahagian tuh datang dari doa-doa orang sekeliling jugak.

You are not living in your own world.

Shallow!

Bangkok

2009-08-05T16:32:00.000+08:00

Despite of the massive spread if H1N1, my colleague and I were determined and shove our feet contentedly, invading Bangkok.

Put the work aside.

Shopping was our main hidden objective!
The market size (this particular) I can say is foot-killing. Go google Cha-Tuk-Chak Market and find out how huge the market is. And imagine we have to cover all of them in 1 day??
They got to be kidding us!

The stuff I can say ranged affordably. But the key word is BARGAIN. You can get a very cheap price provided you know how to negotiate. And I tell you it’s not that easy.
Language is the most crucial laid back. It’s like ayam bercakap dengan itik.
And funny thing is, most of the people there will speak Thai with us (our face ala-ala Thai jugak kot), and all we can say back to them is kap-kun-ka (sambil merapatkan dua tangan ke dada dan tunduk hormat). Muahaha…

As the stuff-hunting went on, our feet suddenly becomes stinging and aching. (almost few kilometers of walking!)
We ended up with 2 sessions of foot reflexology, feeling like crawling back and the thought of walking is making us both whimpered.
Not to mention our try-hard attempt to book a session in the hotel, which obviously failed (balik hotel dah malam, mana datangnye foot reflexology bukak malam-malam)?
Sighing for the feet but happy for the stuff we bought!

(The food sangat sedap. The taste of the SOMTAM macam nak pengsan sedapnye)

Owhh..yess!! A visit to the famous floating market is a must.
(Just have to tolerate with the smelly water splashing over you).

The place was so over exaggerated over time. I bet the place was once been a quiet and nice place. Just a normal market where people trade and buy stuff.

But now it’s so jam-packed with tourist. And the prices are sooooo chop-head!
We did not purchase anything, except few souvenirs, and mangos.

Bangkok!!I will come again, definitely!

And this time, I will make sure I’ll bring enough money to splurge and doing more exercise so my feet won’t hurt; I’m better sign up for any run in KL.. or climb Batu Caves maybe? Hehehe.....

Intro Project

2009-08-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

What a weekend!

Had mine with fully pack of activities. Went to karaoke for our birthday celebration (all the sistah) on Saturday and attended a relative wedding on Sunday.
With my PMS and mensus, i wonder myself how i actually managed to cope with all these.
Other than that, biasa la..doze off takpon duduk depan TV melayan segala cerita yang ada.

Yup..yup...an intro...i remember.Hehehe..

Well, there is a lot i can say about myself.But i don't actually talk.
Having a blog is soooo not me (mind the reason of having one in another entry).
Until you actually talk to me you won't understand the type of person I am.

Confusing??Hehee..Bear me!

Ehmm..I would say that i'm a good listener. People whines, and i listened. Expecting for people to listen to my whining as well. Hehe..cliche!

I don't keep up. That's why i like updates on how things are going.
I'm not a starter. Neither an initiator.I prefer to be a follower (mental note to office-mates, :P).
Shy, demure, leaving me wonder how i landed with this JOB in the first place. Hoping i can last longer than the previous job.

What else?

Family, schools, UNI, Personal Life, will comes part by part in the picture.

Picture?Gambar?
Ehmm, still thinking. Malu la nak post picture. We will see la how. OK?

Later peeps!

What if??

2009-07-31T11:30:00.000+08:00

A What-if questions lingers on my mind.

"What if.......?"
"What if...........?"
"What if.........?"
"What if.....................?"

I looked back and realised that i have done things I'm not proud of in the
past.If i could turn back time and undo things, I certainly would.But flesh and
blood, heart and soul, I am only human and I am bound to make mistakes.

Tapi ALLAH itu maha pengampun kan?

P/S - I did not give you a proper introduction of who I really am, no?Well, will try to do it over the weekend.

Later peeps!

Series of unfortunate events:-

2009-07-30T18:24:00.000+08:00

1. This morning, i forgot to bring my notebook to office. Luckily i'm just half way thru elevated highways when i realized this. Nevertherless, it caused me level 9 parking lot. Pening naik tinggi-tinggi nih. Lambat sikit terus takde parking. Damn!

2. Got fucked up from my distributor. Fuck la!!Pagi-pagi dah kena marah. He scold me for giving him wrong input yesterday.But he's a damn ass too.

3. Still no news from him. Senyap sunyi je. Akibatnye lunch makan maggi. No appetite at all.

4. Kecewa! This one convenient store nearby my OFFICE sold a very expiredddd PRODUCT.Not just by 1 day; it's a month back date punya biskut. How can a very establish store sells such product?Kalau i sakit how la? Saman boleh tak?

Do you think all these unfortunate?

Hey!!Listen!

2009-07-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

I have to let out something from my system.
Can you be my listener?

WTH??This is my space. You have to listen to me whether you like it or not.
I don't give you choices here.

I'm sad now. This is really not a good feeling to start with.
What can you do for me?

Give me money - LOLA is sick!I need money to get her well. Extra money sikit nak beli baju raya.
Granted 1 week leave - This is MYBOSS to decide. I need good sleep, and watch piles of DVD with new TV and AV systems.
Buy me ticket to Melbourne - tapi adalah sedang marah orang itu. So cancel la!
Most thing most....

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Hmmmmmmm.....thoughts been considered.
I think I can take it alone this time.Next time maybe?

Perhaps!

Back to routine. I have to cook now. Before CSI start.